The day after...

The play date with K was amazing. I got to do a lot of things that I've been wanting to try and experience, as well as put the toys to some use finally.

I'm not going to give a play by play of the evening, but I got to use my metal butt plug finally, my anal hook as a vaginal hook, my hitachi wand, and all my striking toys as well as very nearly shoving my fist in her pussy.

It was a bit more sex play than dominance play, but I had her kneel while I inspected her and commanded her into various positions.

It was during this play date that I realized that I still have a long way to go on my fitness regime to get to where I want to be. One of the major things I want do work on is my sexual prowess. I'm still not satisfied with my performance to date, but bear in mind that I'm comparing myself to the Porn stars ten years younger than me (Ye gods am I that old!?) and they have never fought to bring their bodies back under control.

K said I did an amazing job and I don't doubt that I did, but I know I can do better.

By the way; Rockhard Weekend has lost it's potency. I tried it almost 8 months ago and it worked like viagra on steroids, then they changed the formula for some unknown and unacknowledged reason and now it doesn't do shit.

I know this because I have both purchased a bottle of the blue and white pills directly from the manufacturer after they stopped selling in the store and I found a guy who still had a supply of the old stuff.

Took the new pill and waited the requisite 72 hours and I noticed no difference, but when I took the old pill, well, let's just say that I was a little embarrassed to be walking around all the time.

I know that as I lose the weight and rebuild my muscle mass then I'm going to perform better in bed. I'm just being impatient for it.

I spoke to S about M the other day, nothing new there, so I'm not going to worry about it.

L never showed up for the meeting, and she isn't responding to my texts. I may have to go and see her and try to get a direct answer out of her about the modeling and the meetings.

On the actual dating front, I'm still just flirting with women around the town. I want to find another job before I really start going on dates and trying to build a relationship.

I still feel big.

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Damn you's a heavy bastard

A few months ago, I stepped into the doctor's office to get myself checked out and tested for STD's because I had just been invited to attend a serious play party where the host was anticipating it to be just one night of debauchery and sex, and she was requesting that the guests be tested before hand to prevent any unwanted infections.

I was surprised by my weight, thinking myself a healthy 250 but when the scale came out with the number of nearly 300 lbs. I was quite surprised. The real shocker, though, came when I was chatting it up with the nurse, kind of flirting with her while she was taking my blood pressure when she started asking me some unusual questions. Do you have any pain? Headaches? etc. I hadn't, but now that you mention it...

I wasn't really too concerned. High blood pressure runs in the family, but when the doctor came in and said, "So I understand that you're here for your blood pressure," I knew that my original purpose had been lost in the panic.

So I made the decision to change my lifestyle from burgers and fries to salads and nuts. I sucked down those Naked Fruit juices like they were water and generally just tried to eat better and healthier than what I had in the past.

I also attempted to exercise, but you know how that goes, you just don't want to do those repetitive exercises that make your muscles hurt and you so tired that you don't know where the day went.

I lost about 5 pounds that first couple of months just by changing my diet; by the way, my tests came back clean for the most part. They didn't like my blood work at the time, but a second workup showed dramatic improvements over the first one. The joys of proper eating.

My weight is currently at 278, and I want to lose 80 more pounds. If that rumor of cock length is true then I'll have an additional two inches after I've lost the weight. I measured myself the other day and I'm an average length with a 4g Prince Albert crown. I'm not holding my breath, but it is exciting to think that it is a possibility. (I understand that this is just a fantasy.)

I'm excited about tonight. I have a play date with K set up and I'm going to be doing so much to her. We've negotiated everything out, we're clear about what is and isn't acceptable, and we're both very excited. She's probably very nervous, but she said as much.

I'll let you know how the play date went later on. I have to go hunt for work now.

Weight 278

Measurement Wednesday!

I've done the workout about five times. I've made my own little adjustments to the order of things on the DVD, like stretching before I do the exercises. Not that they're difficult by themselves, but I just seem to do more after stretching.

If Kat were to do another one of these videos, I would have to say adding some stretches in the beginning to get warmed up with would be a great idea. I mean, really…who doesn’t stretch before they work out?

I would also suggest leaving more time between exercises that require a position change. I'm an out of shape kinky bastard and sometimes I just need to breathe after doing some of the core work. So when Jessie comes out ready to do pushups, I really hate him at that point, because I'm still on my back panting from the stomach crunches.

I'm a bit confused about the ending of the DVD; are we supposed to masturbate or have an orgasm at the end of the as part of the workout? It's implied but never included as part of it…

Some things I've noticed since starting the workout: when I first started the workout on the 3rd of May, I was three exercises in and sweat was pouring off me in buckets. Today I'm sweating, but it isn't the pool of sweat I had before. My heart was pounding in my chest and throat those first few days, but not now.

I don't feel much different except I've noticed I'm eating less and staying full longer, and people have really noticed that I'm looking much better. I'm not porn star quality yet, but damnit, that's what I'm shooting for!

I didn't take my measurements at the beginning of the regime, but I'm going to get them now and post them and then come back to them in a week.

Measurement Wednesday is born.

5/11/10

Navel 46" totally relaxed

Upper Thigh 34"

Chest 46"

Weight unknown, no scales available

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It's hard to do a sit up when you're drowning

I did it…mostly. I did all of the exercises on the Fortradvd; if by all you don't include a lot of the reps and an entire section labeled 'the next level,' then I did all of the exercises. I feel good after having done them, cleaner.

Of course I had to pause the video a couple of times to catch my breath and to get resituated as the video progressed. There were a couple of exercises that I just couldn't do, something about having a belly getting in the way of me kicking the ceiling. I did my best though and ended up mostly kicking the wall.

After the workout, I'm not ashamed to say that I collapsed and let myself just become a puddle of goo. My heart was pounding, sweat was pouring off of me in rivulets, and I experienced a weakness of the muscles that comes with a good exertion.

I can't even write with a pen, my handwriting has gone from bad to illegible. I can feel it now, the pain is going to be overwhelming once my body realizes what I'm doing to it. I plan on doing this again on Wednesday and then on Friday.

Now that I have the exercise program in place and I'm working on improving my overall health and sexual appeal, I would like to touch on a few other topics about myself that all single men should take into consideration.

How we appear: I'm guilty of it, giving myself the once over in the morning and thinking I'm some sexy stuff with my rumpled hair and day old stubble. The sad fact is that I don't look like Brad Pitt at his worst when I'm at my best, none of us do. So why am I neglecting the things that will get my foot in the door with the people that I want to attract?

I'm not actually. But for the sake of argument and discussion, let's examine what I need to address to make sure that the presentation of me is the best that I can do as if I were ignoring it all.

One of the first things that women notice is a guy's hair. Is it messy? Does it fit my head? When was the last time I had it cut? Would it look better on an older man? All questions to be answered.

Right now, my hair is a bit longer than what I'm used to. I have widow's peak that makes it look as if I have a receding hairline. When I was younger I liked dressing up as Dracula for Halloween, so it wasn't an issue then. Now that I'm older though, looking as if you're about to go bald isn't the hottest look in town. My plan is to find a good stylist and get a professional opinion on what my next hairstyle should be.

I'm also looking for the hairs growing out of my face. Any odd, rogue hairs popping out of unusual places? Pluck ‘em, and I have to be sure to shave more than once a week.

They say that the clothes make the man and they're right. I have to go through and look at all my clothes to make sure that they are in good condition and that I don't need to go visit the seamstress. I also have to confirm that they fit me well.

Being a larger man has certain advantages, but clothing is not one of them. Being built like a small mountain often means that the most effort many designers have put into designing for the bigger man is to put some interesting graphics on the drapery that we are presented with. So what clothes I do find that fit and look good on me, I treat as if they are more precious than gold. Cause they are just as expensive.

The next thing that I have to look at is my shoes. Are they nice, or are they really comfortable and torn to hell? Trust me, given the option, I would go for the comfort of a favorite pair of shoes over the discomfort of a better looking pair, but women are often not given this option.

Why go through all this trouble? Because women do it for us all the time, to the point that they do it subconsciously now. It is only common courtesy that I should do it for them. Trust me when I say that they will notice; they won't say anything right away, but they will appreciate that you have taken the time to adjust your appearance for them.

Our appearance says a lot to everybody who looks at us. Subtle clues that say a lot about us: do we take ourselves seriously? Are we mature? How I dress is going to tell her so much about me even before I've had a chance to say hello.

Think of your body as a house: the physical condition of the house is your health, the yard as your hair, and the paint as your clothing. You know those condemned houses that nobody wants to look at? They're falling apart at the seams and the yard is overgrown and the paint is cracking and in need of a fresh coat?

Compare that to the houses on Nob Hill. Structurally sound, immaculate yards, and paint so meticulous that you couldn't find a crack in them for years to come. Which would you like to put the down payment on?

I'm off to repair my structure and mow the yard. Till next time.

Breaking news

My place of employment has been flooded. So the blog will continue as normal, but any actual dates or anything that requires money will probably not happen until I find new work or I start making money with my online skills.

Diary of a single kinkster: The first exercise

One of the horrible things about being honest with myself and keeping up with the original intents of this blog and podcast is that I have to be honest with you, my readers, as well.

So I decided to pull out the exercise video and give it a shot to see just how out of shape that I truly am and much to my dismay, I made through two of the exercises before I stopped.

I am not surprised by this.

Does this mean that I am giving this up? Oh hell no. If anything this right here proves to me how much I need this video and everything that it represents. The last time I had sex, I thought I was some hot shit. I was wrong. She didn’t have to say anything to me, in fact she said quite the opposite, but if I’m this far out of good shape then I would assume that my performance was lacking a little something for her.

My goal for this video is to make it through the entire regime of exercises in one sitting and still be functional afterwards and not have to pause the thing once.

I realize that I am not going to be able to do this tomorrow. I also understand that I want to find somebody to do this with me if because I am going to be in so much pain then I want to share that misery with somebody.

In a related topic; I know a lot of military guys, I used to game a lot and only here recently quit that dangerous habit.

Gaming is like a drug only there are no campaigns against it anymore, and you can’t do it alone unless you have a lot of expensive equipment.

I walked into the old gaming store where I used to hang out and I saw some of my old friends of whom I used to game with and was appalled by how much some of them had let themselves go. I stopped hanging out with them six months ago, and my military friends have gained all the weight that I have been losing. They’re like swelled up balloon versions of the people I used to know.

I don’t blame gaming it self. I blame the fact that exercise isn’t promoted in such a way as to make people want to do it more often.

Just to give a round about idea of where I’m at in my progress; here are my stats at the beginning of this new exercise regime.

Height: 6’2”

Weight: 274 lbs. (I carry it well and this is where it was the last time I was at the doctors.)

Girth: I wear a 42 in pants.

Diet: salads, nuts, oatmeal, water, chicken, and the occasional breakdown of the diet in the form of a pizza slice or a burger. Not to mention the healthy choice frozen dinners.

I have been doing this diet for the past few months because I needed to lose the weight for reasons above and beyond the “I want to look good naked and have her call my name when she orgasms for years to come” reasons.

I’ll see about arranging for a ‘before’ image to be made to show the state of affairs as they stand

with my body and see about posting progress pictures as well.

Now, I want to stress that I am aware that this exercise is not going to be the end all an

swer to all my dating issues. I’m laying the foundation for the sex I plan to be having and right now the county inspector has found reasons to deny the permits. During this process I shall continue with my other efforts to make myself over and become more attractive to the opposite sex.

Diary of a single kinkster: The Podcast

I did it. I recorded my first podcast, edited the hell out of it and got it posted up.

Diary of a Single Kinkster: The Podcast

Podcasting a little more difficult than I imagined, but easier than I feared. Mostly I wrote out something of a script that I could follow along and then I listened to the play back, attempted to weed out all the small verbal mistakes I made and then made some music to go with it.

I've made some progress today. I've found my exercise program that I shall begin using on a regular schedule starting monday. The hope is to get up early enough in the morning and do the exercises before I go to work. More than likely at night after I get home. I know I'm out of shape cardiovascularly speaking, but my strength is still up there. I just need to work on the stamina and the core.

Foreplay Training or Fortra

So I shall be doing the entire program to get into the shape I want to be in to have the kind of sex I want to have.

If I get a partner that is interested in exercising with me, all the better.

I would like to find a second host for the podcast. Have a conversation about dating and relationships instead of me just talking about it.

Diary of a single kinkster: Fitness program

Oh hell yeah.

I am getting this video and I am going to use it.

http://fortradvd.com/

I would go so far as to put a link for this think as an advertisement if they would pay me.

Once I get my copy I'll post my progress with this as well.